Me again

I'm bizack! (at least that's what I'm saying today)

Very interesting couple of months in my life. I had a little wild streak that left me really unsatisfied with life. I'm back to my normal self and it feels GREAT. Life can be peaceful even if you are busy. Just focus on what is important.

I have some not so good coping mechanisms. Stress can sometimes get the best of me. I found myself in bed by 7pm last Friday and I didn't even go to church this past Sabbath. I just wanted to mope around.

The most difficult thing has been distancing myself my triggers (things and people). I can feel secluded at times but is that really bad? Spending more and more time in your own thoughts and in your own company can be empowering. If you allow your self inquiry to penetrate deeply you can learn some things that seem best suited for fiction.

I remember praying for company. It wasn't because I didn't have friends...I just didn't feel I had people in my life that I could share my journey with. Slowly that is changing under the most unexpected circumstances. God always works like that in my life.

It's good to be back.